…Are all I need on this quiet Tuesday evening when there seems to be nothing to do in the entire state of Indiana. Often times I resent the fact that Southside Indy is the least eventful place in the country next to Flora, Illinois. However, many find an uneventful day such as this one is a waste of a day, I decided to take this moment of solitude to reflect upon life and write about things that have been on my mind for quite some time now. In short, here are a few of my fears, hopes, and random thoughts that have been bottled up in my mind:

• College
• How summer is dwindling down rapidly
• Friendships
• A special someone :)

Over the years, I’ve been often been outspoken and I guess putting into writing my feelings about everything would probably help me make sense of these things and find a deeper understanding of them.

College

Just the thought of it terrifies me. Although all through high school I’ve been told, “Miguel, you have a bright future ahead of you” (as many Roncalli kids have been told) I’m not quite sure what to make of it… After so many years of growing up in a sheltered-parochial school setting, I’m not too sure what to make of college just yet :/ A lot of incoming freshman look forward to the partying aspect of college (which I am, to a certain extent) I really don’t see how many students party their education away while in college. Sure, freedom’s great, but with freedom comes discipline. Call me a loner, or call me the only one that has enough sense to balance his priorities.

How Summer Is Dwindling Down Rapidly

Seriously. A few blinks ago I was graduating. I felt on top of the world. A few blinks later, I find myself in the middle of the summer getting ready for college. What has come over me? Where did time go? The other day, I was on my morning jog with on my good friends and we were talking about how cliche it was when people told us “oh, high school flies by… yatta, yatta, yatta” Then I came to the revelation- Time goes by much faster as you get older for one primary reason: The older you get, the more memories you have. Then I conjured the analogy after that these memories are like money. As one has more money, one tends to spend it much faster. Memories are very much the same way. The more memories you have over time, the faster it will fly by.

Friendships

Now that high school is over, I have realized the harsh reality that this is it. I will soon be parting ways from my friends whom I’ve known for pretty much since kindergarten. I’m beginning to ask myself the question, “have I distanced myself from them intentionally, or was this inevitable?” Either way I look at it, this is my last chance for a while to make the best of my time with my high school friends. I’ll be on my own in Terre Haute with no one from Roncalli, (well except for about 2 others). My hope is that, through this transition into a new phase of my life, my past friendships will still remain.

A Special Someone

Yes, I had to. I wanted to share with the world that I have this indescribable feeling of happiness and joy after being with the one that I love for a week. For those of you who don’t know, I’m in a very unconventional relationship that most would see as one that will set me up for instant heartbreak. However, that is not the case. I am with someone who loves me for who I am, no matter how wierd/wacky I can get, no matter how much of a nerd I am, no matter how metro I can be…okay, you get the idea… It’s just been amazing being with a person who cares about me despite being almost 1000 miles away. Some of you might think that long distance relationships never work for most people. Well, we’re not like most people. No one could ever judge our relationship because they haven’t been in our shoes. They don’t feel what we feel. It frustrates me to know that even some of my friends see my relationship with her as a joke, but really, I don’t listen to them. We go through many of the same challenges that normal couples do on a daily basis. However, we share something that most other couples do not. Kristel’s truly my best friend. She and I share friendship. First and Foremost. We can talk about anything without the pressure of impressing one another. We’re at a point in our relationship where that is not an issue. She loves me for who I am, and I would never ever change a single thing about her. Just being with her, I experience several feelings. One being complete and utter contentment with the world around me. When I’m with her, I feel like everything in my life is going right. I feel like I’m set on fire. I feel like I have supernatural powers that would allow me to do anything. I’m filled with this innate confidence that can never go away. I’m myself when I’m with her, and I never want anyone or anything to take that away from me. I’ve found the epitome of perfection and I am not afraid to say it. I love her. :) :)